A failed Relationship

Have you ever loved someone with all your heart, that you would do anything for them including die for them. Give up eveythinng just for them. You tell them everything about yourself, and you change your lifestyle just for them and them only.

Well I just broke up with my boyfriend of about a month he was sweet, nice, fun, and I am always happy to be around him, he is the person that filled the emptiness inside of me.

We would never fight, or argue. I feel the way we broke up is very shallow on his part. Lets go back to Last Saturday, on Saturday Night I had to dance at the Saloon, and in between my breaks I would talk to him out on the side patio because he couldn't get into the club. Well at 2 am I would get done dancing and go collect my $50 from the back office and then I met him upstairs, he pretty much jumped on me and if we didn't go get a room somewhere he probably would have undressed me right there. I could tell he was super horny, so we left and got a room in Burnsville for the 2nd week in a row both times I paid for but that is beside the point, little did I know he started to get a headache and I did everything to comfort him including something to get his mind off the ache, I played with him fo a little bit until he told me to stop. I stopped and we just laid there and cuddled for the remainder of the night.

The next morning we left and went to his "FAG HAGS" place and chilled there and we just held each other for what seemed like forever and then went out to the Saloon so we could both do the shower competition, well that finished so we went to Perkins on 394 & Louisianna, we had somthing to eat there left and went over to a good friend Nate's house and drank there. then I passed out about 5 am and slept until 2:30. Well he left to go get gas and he said he was going to be right back. He came back with some Roses which I thought was very sweet.

We then ate pizza and watched RENT and cuddled through the whole movie and we started talking I said we needed more communication in our relationship so we could tell eachother when something is wrong. We went to a movie that night and went back to Nates and watced another movie then I fell asleep in his arms.

The next day would be the last day we went to the college so I could pick up my disbursment check and then we went and saw a movie together and after that he dropped me off at the Saloon we kissed and said we loved eachother very much, and he drove off. That would be the last time that we saw eachother.

here is what I think is shallow on his part he couldn't tell me on Tuesday that it wasn't working out and we could be just friends now, but instead he had to tell me over Yahoo instant messnger.

To tell you the truth babe you really can't be "JUST FRIENDS" after a break-up, because 1 person still wants to be more than "JUST FRIENDS". So I will try my best to be a true friend but when it comes to being lovers, it will never happen, for the fact you blew your first and only chance to be with me and with the song off of RENT since you couldn't Take me for what I am, who I was meant to be, and if you give a damn, Take me baby or leave me, because No way - can I be what I'm not.

You expected me to turn fully gay over night and that I can not do but, I enjoy being Bi-sexual and if you cannot accept me for who I am then obviously you are selfish. we may see eachother in passing but that maybe just it. I am going to meet with you on Sunday so we can salvage what we have left of our friendship

until then I still love you as a friend